so. i didn't go to school for 3 days straight. i fell back into this dark place and i only really realized i did when i went out today and saw it's not that bad. it's always like that, i used to not leave the house for months and then when i did, i didn't know why i didn't.
i'm disappointed, of course. it shouldn't happen, but it did. and i just don't want to repeat it.
my leg pains got really bad, i googled it and the first thing it said is that i should stop working out which sucks. i love this routine and i know it'll be bad for me to stop. i know myself, i know it'll be so hard to come back but i can do it. funny how now NOT working out seems hard. i'm happy i got to this point.
the second thing that it said is that i should strech. so, i'll start streching tomorrow (maybe the splits workout streching session too) and i'll try walking again on monday ? i hope it'll be better.
we had a dog training session today and had a lecture. it wasn't my favorite, but i'm happy i get opportunites like these from my school. i think about all the classes and lectures i got from the start of the year and it's amazing.. i'm happy i chose this program.
i told him i don't want to talk to him anymore. maybe on his side he sees it as a break up but for me, we were never a couple. yeah, i miss him of course but i don't think it's actually him i miss, it's the dynamic. he's a creep and made me so uncomfortable, i'm happy he's out of my life.
If you love me, don't let go