i find myself thinking about thinking.
if i look at old photos or transcripts, one of the things that stand out is memories of me thinking about the future.
im at a weird point in my life, just before getting a diploma and then i need to decide wether i want to stay in haifa or move back to tel aviv.
all these years i strugle with my life decisions up until now, did i make the right ones, how would it affect me or people around me...
now, when im really starting to think about my main goal - family, i find myself over thinking about things.
there is so much i wanna do, so many things i wanna say to so many people but im too scared for some reason.
i wish i could feel that in the end everything will truely be alright and then i could just let myself loose and feel free.
hope that someday i can let someone read it but until then, i leave myself with my thoughts.