It's that time of the year again.
I reinvent myself entirely and it's so much fun, because I can be whatever it is I decide to be.
Some people skills are much needed. Gonna work on that real hard. Kind of tough considering my mild Asperger's but ain't nothing gonna break me.
I'm being really awkward about anything remotely romantic, I hate to admit I probably haven't let go completely. I still love him in a way, I just don't want to be his girl, that's all. I wouldn't even know how to engage in a new relationship right now lol other than being so so awkward and oblivious to the fact I'm being flirted with, I live with my parents, where the fuck am I supposed to bring random fuck buddies? It's all new to me. I haven't been single in over a decade.
So refreshing though.
I'm doing pretty good.
I love the present.
I am excited about the future.
Life's a mess but things are slowly adding up.
I'm so glad I went on this adventure. I really to remind myself I'm capable of feeling, and that I'm just... capable. Capable of anything, and also pretty damn good in everything.
Also a bit ashamed that I haven't got much to show for other than the vague statement above. But I'm going to fix this, watch me.
There are so many things I haven't experienced yet, got such a full life to live ahead of me.